Suicide, Ancestral Lineage, and a Collective Message of Hope

Content note: This piece speaks directly about the topic of suicide, spirituality and metaphysical experiences.

If you are struggling with thoughts of suicide or feeling like you don’t want to be here, this message is for you. You are not alone, and it is okay to reach out to someone you trust. I am not a crisis counselor and not able to respond to personal emergencies. If you are in immediate danger, please contact 988, local emergency services or a trusted crisis resource in your area.

Recently I spoke about the death of my husband as the catalyst of my spiritual awakening.

Since then, I’ve had countless spiritual experiences that have deepened my relationship with the divine via the transmissions and synchronicities I receive connecting the spiritual and the physical realm.

One topic that has continued to surface without me consciously choosing it as part of my path - is the subject of suicide. I’m not a suicide‑prevention professional, yet this topic reveals itself in powerful teaching ways as one of the most important conversations of humanity deeply rooted in existential suffering. I am choosing to honor that a much more expansive perspective on suffering, life, death and how we compassionately relate with one another is available for humanity.

In 2020, I received an unexpected, 1-hour in‑depth spoken transmission about suicide and related subjects. The message flowed with the clear knowing that it was important to be shared once I felt comfortable to do so.

At the same time, many people were isolated at home, fearing for their health amid global uncertainty, increasing financial pressures, job layoffs, and heavy relationship strains. In some seasons of life we are challenged by life to grow beyond who we think we are and are not always able to see a long‑term solution or way out of our circumstances. It can feel as if there is no light at the end of the tunnel.

Nothing in this piece replaces reaching out for immediate support or professional help when someone is in crisis; what follows is meant as a spiritual companion to those human resources, not a replacement.

Please know there is light, and the world is not only what we’ve been told or sold that it is - especially when we are looking through a very limited perspective or fixed lens.

We must each explore truths for ourselves, and that can only be accomplished by being willing to go deeper within for our answers.

To me, God is a spark of life within the heart of each living human, a living presence through which creation exists and the Holy Spirit to flows. Within any experience of separation, we are each invited to find our way back to this sense of wholeness and unconditional love.

Do you know that each breath out, and each breath in, is its own tiny death and rebirth?

By that definition, we are each dying and being reborn countless times a day, every day.

Perhaps it is the still point of origin in between, that is the “peace that passeth all understanding.”

I do not fully know why I have experienced certain unforgettable events in my life.

I do not know the ultimate outcome of why I was entrusted to be one to deliver this, which, as far as I’m aware, has gained minimal interest in the seen world for such an important and life preserving message.

What I do know personally is that there are four significant events that give me the lived authority and experience to be a voice of God to speak through on this subject.

1) The death of my spouse to suicide - March 2006

On March 3, 2006, the devastating reality of the death of my husband shattered the dreams for the life I had and began a journey into grief that ultimately unfolded into my spiritual awakening.

2) The death of my great‑great grandfather to suicide - March 1927

On April 3, 2023, my mother texted me an obituary neither of us had ever seen before. It was for my great‑great grandfather, and the obituary stated he died by suicide - on March 3, 1927.

My mother was unaware that earlier that same week, I had received a transmission with inner guidance recommended for me to personally complete by Good Friday, guidance that, in effect, said would heal and release the trauma of my husband’s death by suicide. On the same day before my mother contacted me, I was reminded again to complete the guidance by the approaching Good Friday. This time I was also told in addition, by doing so, it would heal BOTH the suicide trauma in my husband’s family lineage as well as the suicide trauma in my own family lineage.

When I received this information, I was shocked, because I was unaware of any direct family connection to a relative having died by suicide. I affirmed to my higher guidance that I would complete what was recommended by Good Friday, however I asked for some form of confirmation that I heard correctly this was also for my side of the family.

Within less than 60 minutes of my request, my mother’s unexpected text arrived, linking my great-great grandfather to the transmission I had received an hour earlier.

It was not until later that night when I finally sat down to rest that I looked closer at the obituary and I was stunned to see the same death date of March 3 for both family members.

(Note for curious minds wondering what the free will recommended actions were, this was easy steps for me to take but required some time to be completed. Due to the personal nature of what it was, I’m not sharing the private details of the individualized guidance.)

3) My own dark night of the soul - January 2020

In January 2020, during the Saturn/Pluto conjunction in Capricorn, I went through what I can only describe as a dark night of the soul.

For 40 days straight, I was bombarded by external voices inside my head.

I heard the bodily threats.

I heard the relentless demands.

I heard the harmful suggestions.

I knew what I was hearing was not the normal voice in my head, nor was what I was hearing the truth of myself.

It was exhausting.

It was fatiguing.

It was scary.

I felt like a victim.

I questioned why me?

I was at my wits’ end trying to figure out how to make the unwanted experience stop.

The voices were a bit more manageable during the day, but they were relentless at night.

I confided in a couple of trusted people who I knew was more versed in the unseen realms than I was, seeking their suggestions and help.

I did every prayer I could.

I called directly on Archangel Michael to stop it.

That did not work.

I called directly on Jesus to stop it.

That did not work.

I called directly on God to stop it.

That did not work.

In the name of God, I commanded it to stop.

That did not work.

And with that, I had exhausted all that I knew to do, and I was still being attacked.

I finally had enough.

In the middle of the night, I got out of bed and standing in my pajamas I yelled at the top of my lungs at the voices:

“Get the f*ck out of my head!”

“Get the f*ck out of my house!”

“Get the f*ck out of my life!”

And with that, all became silent and calm again - on the 40th night.

As a result of that experience, and through the reclamation of my own power, I gained an intimate, compassionate understanding of what a hellish experience it must be for anyone who cannot find their way out of such a defeating state of relentless mental attack.

4) The transmission, “Suicide. A Message of Hope.” - July 2020

On July 26, 2020, I received the detailed transmission on the topic of suicide. The full content of that transmission has lived on my website since 2021, available for whoever finds it synchronistically.

The core of the message is this: the power of choice belongs both to the individual and to the collective.

It is my belief that the frequency of the suicide‑prevention prayer within that transmission could be the smallest crack of God’s light necessary to create a “what if” into the mental state for a new choice - an entry point into a miracle.

As the transmission communicates, the only real choice required by anyone in the most constricted of moments, is to:

Just Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.

Breathe.

And if all else fails, including love, remember you can still stand in every ounce of your being and yell as a sovereign being:  “Get the f*ck out!”

I do not believe suicide “solves” anything, because the awareness continues for the being without a body. Consciousness continues. Relationships suffer deeply. Karmic actions are reviewed and will be addressed. What is unresolved does not simply vanish. At the same time, miracles also occur to create greatest good out of suffering.

Darkness is separated consciousness that has not yet remembered and chosen to return to the Light.

For the Individual: At its core, the message is for the part of you that believes there is no other way out. It says: even in the darkest state, there is still a point of choice, as simple as a single breath, and then another, and another. Suicide does not end your consciousness or erase your life’s story; it does not erase pain. What begins to end suffering is the choice to see yourself differently, to remember your own light, and to choose anew - one breath, one moment at a time.

For the Collective: The message reminds us that the “solution” to suicide is not only for the person in crisis; it lives in our willingness to develop empathy, to see one another, to offer a kind word or to extend some grace, and to build a culture where people feel supported. Each of us holds a part of that responsibility for our human brothers and sisters. Our world shifts when we choose to meet one another with more love and compassion, including ourself.

I’m sharing my personal experiences now because this is an important, Worth While Conversation that has been gifted through me, and I will carry and speak its truth - whether it be through writing, podcasts, groups or one‑on‑one conversations - where anyone needs to hear: your life does not end here, and your evolution is continually unfolding.

The full transmission “Suicide - A Message of Hope”, including the Prevention Prayer is available on my website. I invite any person who feels called to read it, reflect upon its message, talk about it, and please share it, for all of our ancestors and lineages of human suffering.

With care,

Amy Lovelynn